I would imagine at some juncture in their lives, every individual wonders 'What the fuckin' hell am I doing here?' or more on the lines of 'Why me?' These periods of dread, conundrum and confusion.
A purposeless tread into the unknown that paints out a hazy picture of your life to come, albiet in melancholic hues. A sudden anxiety attack, like a tourette's tick, recurrs each time you think about what you were sent out here to do, to acheive. A good question for all of us to ask ourselves is, What should your epithet read, while you lay six-feet under, rotting unto the earth. Ash to ash, dust to dust.
Here lies you,.... and what?
And does it really make a difference to anyone that you are gone ?
Well it should, ideally. But look around, if you don't see cars that park themselves and phones that ignore calls from call-centres, chances are that the world you live in, is not IDEAL.
So re-run that Goodwill Hunting scene in your head, and realise that "It's not your fault... it's not your fault".
So whose fault is it?
But then again, everything, or so i feel, has the tendency to sort itself out. why? when? how?
I don't know. Keep the faith. we must.
Being the self indulgent sonofagunn that I am, my epithat would read,
Here lies Srini... Lived and Died... and made some people happy in the interim... ( or so he died thinking! )
Bottomline : Don't be afraid of the future, it's equally afraid of you...(yes like that stray dog)
Do the things that you make you feel alive.... and then die...
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It is only for a few that life goes in a straight line (I wish I could use some hand gestures here, the way I was told). And those are the one who are born with a mindset, and probably who has decided to do what they wanted to do, the very time of conception.
And for the others (99%) its something that swirls, where we come across a situation as u rightly mentioned-“ 'What the fuckin' hell am I doing here?” And its not one of those edgy straight lines where you first go in one direction, and then in a different one (forming an intersection, and thus edgy), rather is a nice curve. (I strictly wish I could use hands now). But I guess you know what I mean, its like a river. One way, then curves to the other, not knowing where its heading, but -eventually finding its way.
I have been fighting with myself lately too not sure if its something genuine or just another hiccup to get strayed from the path, whatever is set for me. Because for sure I am not aware of it. Or may be that's what the fight is about. Anyways that is in no way close to ending, so no point thinking over it.
Conclusion-Dun think, don’t worry. Its just another phase.fuck it all. Just live ur life to the fullest.
yup dont think...thats a great advice..cuz half the things we think about were never existent n mostly never will be..the disadvantage of having a too active mind i guess
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